Friday, March 16, 2012 @ 4:52 PM

I wish I had a loving heart.

My heart's entering a bad state where all it produces is a ton of hatred. It multiplies by the second, just like bacteria. It feels like it's feeding off of the sliver of hope I've got left. Every time I accidentally think of you, I feel like killing someone. Not literally, or at least I hope not. I just want you to get the fuck off my mind because your existence bothers the shit out of me.

I just want to forget and forgive. Not for your sake, fuck no, but for my own. This is such a heavy burden on my heart. Hating you is only bringing me down. I want to stop.

I want to wake up one day not knowing what your name is or where you live. I want to think back on those eight miserable, miserable months and not remember a single fucking thing.