Day 19: Something that never fails to make you feel better
Friday, May 27, 2011 @ 3:12 PM

"Eat your pain away." "Disconnect yourself from the world with music and you'll feel much better after wards." "Go on a walk and relieve your stress."

Those quotes all demonstrate how one can free themselves from their problems or stress, momentarily. I've tried all of them and trust me, the only thing you'll gain is weight once you eat literally all your pain away. As much as I enjoy spending quality time alone, when I'm down, the most effective way for me to feel better is to talk. I like talking about my problems, I like listening to what others have to say because everyone looks at things differently. I guess you could say it helps me balance out the equation and make my final decision. Conversing with people has never failed to make me feel better.

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Day 18: Disrespecting parents
@ 3:03 PM

This is going to sound a tinsy bit hypocritical, but I think that all kids should have complete obedience towards their parents. They're the ones that gave you life, they're the ones that taught you everything you know, and they're you're biggest influence. If that's not enough to make you worship your parents, then think of it this way: They pay for your phone bill. They pay for your internet.

I'm more than sure that your own parents care about you more than they show it. They've shed tears because of you, they've sacrificed and gave up some of their important values just for your own benefit. They could've had a series of misfortunes during the day, but when they come home and you flash them your straight A report card or even a small accomplishment, their whole day would be brightened up because of you. You mean that much to your parents and they care about you more than anything. The least you can do is make them proud and show them that all their hard work is worth it.

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@ 7:01 AM

You're just another boy who can't keep control of his emotions.

Thursday, May 26, 2011 @ 5:15 PM

I may not know a lot about relationships, but one important thing I want to put out is that if you can't compromise, nothing's ever going to work out. If you know you're too damn stubborn to give up something of your own then don't expect anything to be happy-go-lucky.

Day 17: Things that make you scared
@ 5:07 PM

1. The dark. I can never sleep in the dark. I always need a night light!
2. BUGS. Ew. Ew. Ew. I can't stand those disgusting little creatures.
3. Being alone/not talking to anyone. I feel down when I'm not conversating with at least one person.
4. Disappointing people, especially when I could've done better.
5. Failing. Bad grades or even failing to make someone happy.
6. When someone says, "We need to have a talk." Holy shit that is the worst sentence ever and should be banned from the English language.
7. Heights.
8. Gaining a tremendous amount of weight. LOL

And probably a bazillion more that I can't think of right now.

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Day 16: 3 things that you are proud of about your personality
@ 4:53 PM

1. I'm easy-going. Sometimes I'm too chill, especially at times when I shouldn't be. I let go of things easily. I forgive easily. I say, "it's fine" and "it's okay" way too often. I can never bring myself to reject someone and I hate leaving bad impressions. I can be way too nice sometimes and although people can take advantage of that, I like this side of me.

2. I say what I have to say. There's a fine line between being blunt and being rude about something. I'm the type of person that will stand up in front of the class and say what everyone else is keeping inside. I'll go to anyone, even the principal and tell him what I find wrong and what's unfair. I'll tell the truth about something even if the rest of the crowd disapproves.

3. I try to keep a fair balance. That includes my health, grades, and especially relationships with other people. If I feel that I'm getting distant from one person, I'll go out of my way to keep in touch with them more often. If there's a problem between me and a friend, I'll try and fix it. I don't like keeping bad relationships with people, and the word "haters" doesn't appeal to me. I prefer people on my side rather than people against me.

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Wednesday, May 25, 2011 @ 12:26 AM

Tuesday, May 24, 2011 @ 9:26 PM

After hours of """""brainstorming""""" the best idea I could come up with for my end of year movie project was about a girl getting a huge make over.

It's a pretty original and typical story about a ugly girl getting introduced to fashion and make up. And the more I get into writing the script, the more similarities I see between the plot and myself. Oh who am I kidding, THIS IS THE STORY OF MY LIFE.

Day 15: The best thing to happen to you this week
@ 8:27 PM

Nothing.

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Day 14: Something disgusting that you do
@ 8:24 PM

I eat and drink straight from the source. Meaning, I drink milk and OJ from the carton, eat ice cream from the box, and food from the pan. I blame my laziness for these actions since I do this because I don't want to spend time pouring my drink in a cup, getting a bowl out, etc.

I also chew gum really loudly. BAD HABIT.

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Day 13: A date you would love to go on
@ 8:15 PM

There are a lot of dates I could go on and come home and say, "That was perfect." But one specific date that I've been dreaming about doesn't consist of expensive gifts or gourmet meals at a fancy restaurant. It involves nothing more than a rented movie and a blanket. The perfect date for me would be placed right in the comfort of my own couch, cuddling with my boyfriend. A simple date such as this would mean so much more than going out.

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Day 12: Things you want to say to an ex
@ 8:14 PM

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Day 11: Your current relationship
@ 8:09 PM

Let me start off by saying that I'm content with who I'm with. We may not have the perfect relationship, and the fact that we can't see each other often enough sucks more than you know, but things are going smoother than planned. I make him happy and he never fails to put a smile on my face. I doubt we'll ever hurt each other but if we do, I believe we'll be able to overcome it. We don't argue and we both have no desire to dominate over this relationship.

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Thursday, May 19, 2011 @ 1:50 PM

I find it funny when people bring up old memories and give me small hints that they miss me when they're the ones that left first. Kicked me to the curb, and left me all alone to struggle by myself. They walked, no, they ran out of my life. They seemed so eager to get away from me. I was always the one that wanted to fix things and if it weren't for their stubborn attitude, things could have worked out. I always knew in the back of my head that they'd come back but when it actually happened, I realized that I don't want nor need them in my life. Too many things have changed, permanently. The space that seemed impossible to fill is now mended and they've become an addition to the list of people I no longer care about.

@ 1:41 PM

No one but you can change the way I feel about you. I won't believe what anyone else says unless you clarify it. I trust you to tell me what's in your heart, and in turn I'll do the same. This relationship is just between you and me and it'll be kept that way.

Day 10: Your views on drugs and alcohol
@ 1:08 PM

I'm a teen surrounded by hundreds of other teens. Teens have a reputation for not using their brains. In other words, we don't always make the right decisions the first time around. I've given into peer pressure and I most likely will continue to fall into it. I won't lie through my teeth and tell you that I'm straight edge.

Alcohol is one thing that's easy to get hooked on. Whether you enjoy the feeling that it gives off or it's a loop hole for you to escape reality and it's problems, your body will find a way to stick to it. This is where your intelligent minds should come into play and decide what's best for you. Alcohol is easy to abuse and it's caused destruction in many individuals' lives. The majority of those who consume it are irresponsible in one way or another. It's often used as a crutch and it's highly addictive.

Drugs and alcohol are only as bad as you make them to be. Over-do it, rely on it, become an addict and it'll do you nothing but harm.

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Tuesday, May 17, 2011 @ 3:09 PM

“Can you fulfill my fantasies? Can you extinguish my ever lasting lust and send me floating through that place called ecstasy? Can you handle your business like a [wo]man should and just make love to me? Wait a minute before you answer because I don’t mean physically. I want to know if you can make me climax mentally. If you can tickle my intellect and caress my knowledge the same way you do my body. I know you’ve been between my thighs but, can you really get inside of me? Can you finger my thoughts and fondle my personality? Can you kiss my ideas and penetrate my identity? You have to stroke my imagination if you truly want to satisfy me. If you really want to drive me wild then open up a book and read to me. Fill my mind with information and feed my vocabulary. I’m sure you could make my body rise to an orgasm effortlessly. But I challenge you to make me reach my peak without ever touching me.”

source: she-whispers

Day 9: Your last kiss
@ 3:05 PM

To describe it in one word: Unexpected.

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Monday, May 16, 2011 @ 11:15 PM

Current mosquito bite count: 31

Kill me now

Day 7: Your opinion on cheating on people
@ 8:26 PM

My opinion on cheaters? Simple.

All cheaters should go die.

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Saturday, May 14, 2011 @ 2:24 PM

Day 6: The person you like and why you like them
@ 11:23 AM

I'm going to assume that this means "like" as in the bond between friends.

When I think of the words, true friend, one person comes to mind. We're so different yet so similar. She's the type of person that won't hesitate to tell me the truth. She listens and gives me the perfect advice. She knows me probably better than anyone. We finish each other's sentences. We know our likes and dislikes. She understands what I'm going through without me even having to explain every little detail. She's one person I'm actually glad I met and I don't ever plan on losing her.

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Day 5: 5 Things that irritate you about the opposite/same sex
@ 11:15 AM

1. People that are way too easy. There's nothing beneath their surface. They're immature and there's no sign of them ever growing up.
2. Cockiness has got to be the most irritating characteristic about a person.
3. When people don't dress well.
4. Bad planners. They go with the flow. I always get lost in their plans and I end up not being able to attend whatever I was supposed to.
5. When people are just plain out weird and awkward.

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Gtfo
Thursday, May 12, 2011 @ 10:56 AM

Last time I checked, this is my life, not yours. I know I make mistakes. I fall into ditches and holes that seem too difficult to get out of. But I always find a way to make it out. I can't say that I'm proud of the way I've lived my life but I've gotten through just fine by myself. As cliché as this sounds, life's a roller coaster and it's full of highs and lows but I'm prepared to have a balance to those hills and valleys. I learn with experience. I have to make that mistake and realize how challenging it is to escape from it in order to learn my lesson. You don't need to prevent me from doing anything wrong. You don't need to point out my inability to achieve certain things or my "inaccurate" opinions. There's no need for you to break into my life and demand how to live it when I consider you a stranger. Don't care so much for me and most importantly, don't expect me to care back.

You might as well save your breath and your shitty so-called advice because I won't listen.

Day 4: What you wear to bed
@ 10:51 AM

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Day 3: What kind of person attracts you
@ 10:45 AM

Someone who can be serious and humorous. Call this shallow but I tend to be attracted to guys who look clean, smell fresh, and dress nice. Intelligence and wittiness = unf. "Common" sense would also be nice since it isn't very common anymore. I would pick chill and laid back people over hyper and clingy people any day. Socializing is one of the most important things in my life so it's a must to be talkative.

I'm so picky. ),,:

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Day 2: How have you changed in the past 2 years?
@ 10:34 AM

I've grown up.

It took me longer than others to realize that the world I, or we, live in isn't a very happy place like I've imagined it to be. Despite my young age, facing life's inevitable problems and overcoming numerous obstacles have taught me to become independent. I'm not as nice as I used to be and my personality's become a bit rough on the edges. Nice people finish last. I'm not satisfied about where I have placed myself but for now this is the best I can do.

Reality's harsh and cruel ways have definitely made me stronger.

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I may be wrong but..
@ 10:18 AM

This is my way of coping with relationship problems.

I don't talk about it. I don't discuss it. Actually, I even keep good news to myself.

If I learned anything from the past couple relationships I've been in, it's to not talk so much. Opening up to talk about your personal feelings is one thing but ranting about your relationship problems is another. Although there might be a few exceptions since not everyone can keep their mouth shut forever, blabbing about your love life senselessly will never do any good.

The world's filled with mischievous, heartless, two faced people who'll use whatever you say against you. Don't wear your heart on your sleeve.

Getting numerous people involved in your relationship will do nothing but bring it down. It increases the chances of them interfering with your business and you'll have no choice but to listen to their irritating two cents that are more than likely to be false. You've got to follow your heart, your mind; not anyone else's. Remember, no one knows your relationship better than you and your other.

Day 1: Weird Things You Do Alone
Monday, May 9, 2011 @ 8:52 PM

1. Exercise. This is weird only because I don't ever move at school or when I'm with people but at home, I'm active.

2. Bake.

3. Sing and play the piano. Fail every time.

4. Call myself with another phone and listen to my echo and laugh my ass off.

5. Take random showers.

6. Text 50 people at once to see who replies.

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@ 8:51 PM

@ 8:42 PM

Things that I'm not:
@ 6:48 PM

I'm not strong as I would like to be. People talk about how strong I am for my boldness, but I am nothing close to strong. Behind this mask of mine hides numerous encounters of suffering. You have no idea how many times I've struggled and faltered. I'm not strong, and if anything, I am weak. I've cried and I've broken into a million pieces. Some pieces become missing, and they're nowhere to be found. It's unrecoverable and that's how it'll have to stay forever. The hardships I've been through are unimaginable. I've given into temptations and I can never seem to make the right decision the first time I try. I may seem perfectly fine on the outside, but inside, I'm bruised and damaged. I look strong, but I certainly don't feel strong at all. Really, I'm a broken person.

Having strength is like being placed in first place. When you're #1, you either struggle to stay up, or you go down.

Simple reminder:
@ 6:44 PM

Don't be afraid of failure. Always remember that you won't know what it feels like to rise unless you've felt what it's like to fall.

Saturday, May 7, 2011 @ 8:34 AM

@ 8:31 AM

I can't expect you to fulfill every one of my needs because no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to fulfill yours.

Thursday, May 5, 2011 @ 11:05 PM

One of my strongest beliefs: Equality and fairness.

If you treat me like shit, I'll treat you like shit. If you're nice to me, then I'll be nice to you. If you reply late to my texts, I'll reply late to your texts. If you're too busy for me, then well, I won't make time for you.

Monday, May 2, 2011 @ 10:37 PM

I play hard to get. I act as if I could care less about what's going on in your life and I may hurt your feelings. I give sarcastic answers instead of truthful ones. This may sound odd but I do this in order to protect myself. From what? I haven't figured that part out yet. Maybe I'm afraid that I'll care more than I should.

I'm searching for that one person. The one who can read my face and decipher my exact thoughts. The one who'll look into my eyes and know what's wrong. The one who'll look beyond the surface and see the true meaning behind my sarcasm. The one who'll know my heart without having to explain myself. I'm hoping that person would be you.

@ 7:03 PM

Do you even remember me? Remember those times and moments we’ve both shared? Remember the days when we thought we would be friends forever until we grow old and die? What happened to us? What happened to the “me plus you” Where did that all just disappear? It’s like a blink of an eye and everything has just disappeared. We couldn’t do anything to stop it, we were young and naive. Still mucking around. But now things have changed, we no longer talk 24/7 online. There will no longer be missed calls when I check my phone. All of that has just come to a rest. One minute I had you, and the next you drifted away.

LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS ABOUT ME, SO I MUST LEARN HOW TO LOVE OTHERS.
@ 6:53 PM

I can’t have a new life, I can only start over.
I can’t erase the past, I can only learn from it.
I don’t know when I’m going to mess up, but I can always avoid getting in trouble.
I don’t know when I’m going to get hurt, that’s why they tell me to watch out.
I don’t know what other people are thinking, so I mind my own business.
I don’t like complication, I keep everything at its simplest.
I don’t always get what I want, that’s when I learn to be satisfied with what I’ve got.
I’m not the smartest person in the world, but it doesn’t hurt me to learn something new.

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