Monday, August 1, 2016 @ 1:38 AM

Lately I've been telling myself often to stop feeling bad for myself. It honestly feels pathetic when I look beyond myself and notice that I'm not in the position to complain about my situation, given that almost everything is going fine.

But why is it that I'm filled with such negative thoughts?

When I'm not distracted and am alone in silence, I feel suffocated and an overwhelming amount of anxiety fills up my heart. It's to the point where my mind starts manipulating aspects of my life and then paranoia kicks in.

This problem lies within me; it's no one else's doing.

I constantly feel.. bad. There isn't any other way to put it.

I don't want to admit that there's something wrong with me, and that's probably why I've continuously trivialized my emotions. At this point though, they're difficult to ignore, but I have nothing to justify my terrible thoughts besides myself.