Welcome to my journal, filled with obnoxious opinions. The title says it all. I post things that may or may not be relevant to my life. This public journal was created for the sake of myself and for my personal uses. It's where I put my thoughts down into words. It's where I learn, understand, and discover myself.
I'm no philosopher, just someone with common sense.
Since my blog is already out in the open, I have no problem with you criticizing it. However, I have a very low tolerance span for bullshit, so I'll most likely overlook your (moronic) two cents if they are made. I'm not here to explain my thoughts or opinion to anyone. We can agree to disagree. You don't have to like how I blog or view things,
for it was never meant for you in the first place. I'm not forcing you to read any of my entries and you are definitely not obligated to follow me.
Overly sarcastic, but thoughtful. Read to know me.
I was so worried about them because I didn't really study and based on the test grades I've received, I wasn't doing so well in my core classes. But fortunately, I passed every one of them. I'm so fucking relieved.
Bio Honors - 97! Can you believe that? A ninety fucking seven. ME. I got a 97. ON AN EXAM.
Alg 2 Honors - 93. #$#@$#@ I've been getting less than 60 on every test and I get a 93. God obviously loves me.
Spanish - 76. Who cares about Spanish right? I can bring the grade up any day.
CCC - 100. I cheated.. LOL it was too hard to remember shit about business letters, research papers, memos, reports, block letters, etc.
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I want butterflies again.
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“Nobody chooses to be a freak. Most people don’t realize they’re a freak until it’s way to late to change it. No matter how much of a freak you end up being, chances are there’s still someone out there for you. Unless of course, they’ve already moved on. Because when it comes to love, even freaks can’t wait forever.
— Grey’s Anatomy
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Quit saying sorry, because sorry doesn’t say enough.
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Monday, October 25, 2010 @ 3:30 PM
Broken promises, empty words.
Saturday, October 23, 2010 @ 6:11 PM
Stuff-Centered @ 5:50 PM
Sometimes, we see the world through the lens of possessions or "stuff." We live in a material world that teaches us that "He who dies with the most toys wins." We have to have the fastest car, the nicest clothes, the latest phone, the best hairstyle, and the many other things that're supposed to bring us happiness. Possessions also come in the form of titles and accomplishments, such as head cheerleader, lead in a play, student body president, etc.
There is nothing wrong with accomplishing and enjoying our stuff but we should never center our lives on things, which in the end have no lasting value. Our confidence needs to come from within, not from without, from the quality of our hearts, not the quantity of things we own. After all, he who dies with the most toys.. Still dies.
"If who I am is what I have and what I have is lost, then who am I?"
Friday, October 22, 2010 @ 9:42 PM
They may say some awful things, but there's no point in listening. Your words are the only words that I believe in afterwards.
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Labels @ 9:29 PM
Labels are an ugly form of prejudice. Break down the word prejudice and you'll get pre-judge. When you label someone, you are pre-judging them; that means making conclusions about someone without knowing them. I don't know about you, but I can't stand it when I'm unfairly judged by someone who doesn't know a thing about me.
People are too complex to be neatly shelved in to a category like clothing in a department store, as if there were only a handful of different types of people in the world instead of millions of unique individuals.
If you've been falsely labeled, you can live with it. The real danger comes when you start to believe the labels yourself. Just remember: You are not your labels.
Thursday, October 21, 2010 @ 10:39 PM
Talked to you for an hour today.. And that's just not enough. I want to talk to you all day, everyday. I want to tell you about my day before I forget it. I want to talk to you without having to wait for you. I hate how time is limited. I hate how we can only talk on a certain time of day. I feel like you're missing out on a part of my life and I'm missing out on yours. I guess I'm still not used to this. I miss having you by me all the time.
You have the power to: @ 10:30 PM
Control me. You have the ability to control how I feel because the things you do and say effect me. I let it get to me, because I care about you. I care about who you talk to, what you say, what you've done and how you act. I care too much about you, so the smallest things have a huge impact on me. Not only do I care for you but I trust you. I trust you with everything, even my heart. That means you have the ability to break it. I've given you the "privilege" to hold it. I let you in because I trust you.
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"If you're that insecure, why don't you just lock him up?"
Things that don't matter. @ 10:16 PM
I hope you know that no matter how many guys I talk to, no matter how many people I'm friends with, no matter how many people know me, you're the most important. You're the one that has my heart. You're number one.
And I hope it's the same for you too.
Feeling of today: @ 9:43 PM
I hate when it feels like everything is falling apart. When you feel like you're losing everything you've once had. And all you have left are memories.
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I miss you. I haven't talked to you in over 30 hours. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
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TIME FOR MIDTERMS/FAIL.
Never. Wednesday, October 20, 2010 @ 7:24 PM
Never expect, never assume, never ask and never demand. Just let it be. Because if it's meant to be, it will happen the way you want things to be.
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My heart will wait, my hearts going to wait for you, always.
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If you don't want disappointment, @ 7:05 PM
Stop expecting so much. No expectations = no disappointment. This sounds rather simple but people tend to make it more complicated than it really is. The people that set the highest expectations are the ones that get disappointed the most. People set expectations for other people hoping that they'll act accordingly. Truth is, people will disappoint you, always. No, it's not because they're rude or they don't care about you. It's because everyone makes their own choices. They live for themselves and they live to please themselves, not anyone else. That's just how humans were created. They aren't going to let you get in the way of their happiness. That's why you see people break up and end friendships. They aren't happy with who they're with, or because they're no use to them. People throw other people away. They don't need you if you aren't beneficial to them.
People choose whatever that pleases them or find interest in. No interest = rejection. Unfortunately, rejection is common. Everyone gets rejected. It's a part of life and it's inevitable. You need to know how to deal with it. Think optimistic and don't let it get to you. Don't be hard on yourself because you have plenty of chances to try again. Just because you've failed this time doesn't mean you'll fail for the rest of your life. It isn't game over. The chances are unlimited. Failure leads to success and rejection builds character.
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Make yourself happy. @ 6:48 PM
If you're trapped between your feelings and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy.
Unless, you want everybody to be happy except you.
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Sometimes, I feel like spitting out my entire life's story to anyone who will listen.
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"I want to work at Abercrombie or something but I'm not pretty enough. Apparently they're shallow as fuck and they only hire white girls."
"That's a lie and what do you see yourself as?"
"Ugly as fuck."
"I want to slap you sometimes."
"Hah."
"Anyways, they look for good personality. You need to be nice and well mannered but you aren't. ;)"
"I can be if I'm getting paid for it."
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Tuesday, October 19, 2010 @ 10:45 PM
Some deep thinking. @ 10:44 PM
On some days, before I go to sleep, I lay down and start thinking about everything and everyone. I start thinking about one thing and it leads on to the next. It's like I'm flipping through my memories like the pages in a book. Sometimes it's overwhelming because I feel like I'm unable to keep my life balanced with so many things happening all at once. Other times I laugh at myself for the foolish mistakes I've made in the past. Rarely, I smile thinking about a good memory.
I love that short amount of time I have for myself. It makes me realize how much emotion and feeling I have within me. It helps me remember who I've encountered during my life time, what I've done and the things that are truly meaningful.
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It's always been you, from the day that I saw you, from a heart that was broken. I was changed into something brand new.
And I'm sorry for the things I've done, when you ran to me, I turned to run. But you were waiting when I came undone and I needed something to hold on to.
'Cause it's always been you, in the heat of the moment when the pain was so real and the scars on my heart were still wounds.
It's always been you.
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Monday, October 18, 2010 @ 11:16 PM
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Squeals
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Lesson learned: @ 11:00 PM
Feelings fade as times passes by. Even the strong ones.
WOO @ 8:55 PM
Raised my 30 I got on my Alg 2 test to a 58. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
Not really. I thought I did so much better than that.. Ugh.
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I lied because I didn't want you to know that I care.
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You, @ 8:41 PM
annoy the hell out of me.
The way you talk.
How you talk.
The way you say things.
When you say things.
How you act.
How you come across as.
Why your such an ass sometimes.
How you always bring up the past when it’s not necessary.
The things you have said to me.
How you try to ‘prove’ yourself constantly.
How you never shut up about yourself.
When you make excuses up that are un-excusable.
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New start. @ 8:36 PM
Don't let the past and useless details ruin your existence. If the things you did in the past isn't something you're very proud of, change. Don't let the past bring you down. Sure, sometimes you think about what you've done and you might feel like you're falling apart inside. But don't let that get to you. There's always another chance, this isn't the end of the world. It isn't too late to change. You can improve. Become a better person so when you look back later, you will be proud of who you were and are.
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I just went through your whole blog, starting from when you first made it to now :) Sunday, October 17, 2010 @ 9:16 PM
Remember when, we never had to remember when times were better, when times were better than this?
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"Why do dreams have a height requirement?"
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^ I actually kept on repeating it for like 5 minutes until I finally got the "joke". I'm so stupid.
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"Me in 20 years."
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^ HATE IT.
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"Where's my prince?" LOL
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= Alan. ♥
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MY LIFE @ 6:02 PM
Is getting worse and worse. Losing people, I'm not even getting close to anyone. I really don't enjoy all the classes I have now, I hope I get better classes next semester with new fucking people.
I was supposed to go fucking homecoming dress shopping tomorrow/get my ears pierced but my dad scheduled a fucking three hour test for me to take. It's supposed to tell me "where I'm at". What's ridiculous is that, that test costs $100. What the shit, why would you waste money on a test? It's not even PSAT or SAT. Whatever.
Then Sunday, I was planning on getting a hair cut BUT I HAVE CHURCH WORK TO DO. FJGNFJDNGJDNGFJD
On Monday, I have two tests on the worst fucking subjects, Alg 2 and Biology. Fuck.
Then FRIDAY, we have our fucking mid term exams. We have ours super duper fucking early because we're on gay ass block schedule.
Today: Stayed at school until 4:30 or something to study and retake that stupid Algebra 2 test I got a 30% on.
What I need right now:
1) A new brain, because the one I have right now is TOO damn stupid to keep up with all this "honors" shit.
2) A camera.
3) TIME.
4) Some new good friends.
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12 AM, haven't done any homework and I still need to wash my hair/brush teeeef.
I have a very low tolerance span for bullshit, so I'll most likely overlook your (moronic) two cents if they are made. I'm not here to explain my thoughts or opinion to anyone. We can agree to disagree. You don't have to like how I blog or view things,
for it was never meant for you in the first place. I'm not forcing you to read any of my entries and you are definitely not obligated to follow me. 
