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You belong here. You were meant for me. You belong here. You belong here with me. You were meant to be with me.

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LOOKS DO MATTER
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Everyone is shallow. I believe that it's a natural thing for humans to be attracted to someone's physical features.  Looks do matter. The first thing you notice about a person is their appearance, not their personality. The people you would want to get to know first is someone that catches your eye, not someone that turns you off the second you see them.

I'm not saying looks are everything, because I do know some people with ugly interiors but beautiful, drop dead gorgeous exteriors. If you're ugly on the inside, you aren't beautiful. But what I am saying is that looks do matter. So when people say that they don't care about looks, just personality, they're obviously lying.

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I KNOW I SHOULDN’T CARE/WORRY, BUT I DO.

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Everything we had, is no longer there.

Unknown
@ 7:09 PM

As time passes, we should be getting closer and closer. Instead, we're getting farther away from each other. Where is this going?

Don't get too attached
@ 7:06 PM

What are you planning on doing when they're gone? Life is unpredictable you know. A person can disappear in an instant.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010 @ 6:10 PM

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My biggest fear: Losing you.

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Oh why do I miss you so much.
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You've only said two words to me today.

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^ Oh.. Thank God.

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Bad things about me
Tuesday, September 28, 2010 @ 8:42 PM

I am a pessimist.
I eat too much or eat too little.
I worry too much.
I assume too much.
I daydream about non existent things.
I am gullible.
I ask everyone their opinions before making a decision. Which is bad in a way because I should listen to MY heart and MY head, not anyone else's. I'm weak, I can't make my own decisions. I'm dependent.
I exaggerate my problems. Even when they're minor, I don't shut up about it and make it sound like I'm going through hell, when in reality, I'm fine.
I deny the truth.
I am a hypocrite.
I beat myself up for the smallest things.
I try my best to get things I want. Which means I always have to get what I want.
I'm not "innocent".
I try too hard. (To impress)
I'm sensitive.
I put on a fake front when I'm a fucking softy at heart. I do this because I don't want anyone to know my weakness and come after me. I do this because I'm scared.
I think I know everything.
I hate too much.
I read a lot of love stories that will probably never, ever happen to me.
I expect too much from everyone, even myself.

Am I over reacting
@ 8:39 PM

For being worried 24/7? I feel like I'm making a big deal about nothing, because no one else seems to give a fuck or even pay attention. I notice the smallest changes and it upsets me. When those "changes" are bad, I try to fix it. Sad thing is, I can't fix them by myself so you need to help me. I take small changes seriously, because I believe they can lead to a big change. So big that it will be uncontrollable. We won't be able to do anything about it. It'll become permanent.

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Please, just act like you care.

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If things keep going on like this, I think I'm going to cry.

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I didn't even get to say good bye.

Monday, September 27, 2010 @ 7:07 PM

However heartbroken you feel, trust me, your ex boyfriend is not going to want you back if you show him that you are miserable and/or needy.

You probably have the urge to let him know just how terrible you feel, and how much you miss him, so that he will feel.. ehm... Feel what? Pity..?

A guy doesn't fall for a girl out of pity, ever! You'd be amazed though, how many women try to use this "tactic" to get an ex boyfriend back. Please don't be one of them! To get your ex boyfriend back, you will have to be confident and strong!

Why didn't I read this before!?
(via Article)

@ 6:24 PM

What if..?

How's my birthday!?
@ 6:16 PM

Horrible. Just horrible. I'm so fucking worried. There's absolutely no room for me to be happy.

My friends did so much for me and I'm grateful. But today has been really bad. I apologize to those that did a lot for me, because I sure as hell didn't look shocked or excited.

I guess I made it pretty obvious that I wasn't all that happy. So sorry about that, I forgot to put on my fake smile today. I was just annoyed with everyone and everything, and I was cranky all day long. Yeah, I feel bad for being rude but I couldn't help it.

Probably the worst birthday I've ever had. Yay for being 15!

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^ When I saw that today, I seriously thought Google put that up for me. But turns out that it was for something/someone else. Boo hoo.

Friday, September 24, 2010 @ 8:13 PM

There are a lot of things I'd like to talk to you about. I just can't them to come out of my mouth. I'm scared I'll fuck everything up. My insecurities, my stupid assumptions, and my imagination ruin everything.

Stop being so nice
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If all you're going to do is give people the wrong idea. Most of the time, being way too nice can be mistaken for flirting. One thing I don't like seeing people do is leading people on.

Thursday, September 23, 2010 @ 11:02 PM


^ Sometimes I eat it because I feel bad for it.

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^ Cinderella walked on broken glass, Sleeping Beauty let a whole lifetime pass, Belle fell in love with a beast, Jasmin married a poor thief, Ariel walked on land for love, and Snow White barely escaped a poison apple. It was all about blood, sweat, and tears. Because love means facing your biggest fears.

@ 10:58 PM

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same.

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How to fight loneliness
@ 10:53 PM

Smile all the time, shine your teeth to meaningless and sharpen them with lies and whatever is going down will you follow around.

That's how you fight loneliness.

You laugh at every joke, drag your blanket blindly, fill your heart with smoke and the first thing that you want will be the last thing you'll ever need.

That's how you fight it. Just smile all the time.

WILCO

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^ LOL!

@ 8:38 PM

You've changed so much, I don't think I like you anymore.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010 @ 8:48 PM

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You've changed.
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But hey, I shouldn't care, because we're no longer friends. You aren't even considered a part of my life anymore. We're nothing more but strangers. Thank God we stopped communicating to each other because if we didn't, I would've probably ended our relationship in a horrible way. You've become someone that I would never befriend, or even talk to.

Today I feel like:
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I'm losing you, I can feel it. It's getting really hard to keep people close to me.

Realization
Tuesday, September 21, 2010 @ 9:00 PM

What we had wasn't love. It was obsession. I was obsessed with him, I never loved him.

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Everything just sucks.
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I'm so negative.

Not important enough?
@ 6:06 PM

Have you ever felt like you aren't exactly a part of a group or "clique", but you're in it anyways? They treat you like you aren't important and it seems like they're using you and sometimes you just want to drop everything and leave them. Because you deserve more than just them, you deserve people that actually know you and care about you. You want to leave their life because they obviously don't need you in theirs. You aren't important to them so you want to stand up for yourself and leave them with confidence. But you can't do that, because then you'll have no one to rely on. The sad part is they're all you have, and without them, your life would be more miserable than it already is. You've got to make the best of what you've got, whether they like you or not. It doesn't matter if they need you or don't need you. What's important is that you need them.

Monday, September 20, 2010 @ 7:51 PM

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can just fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you're ready to let it all end. Trust me. I know exactly how it feels.

(via sharleeen24)

Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ 6:57 PM

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What I've learned
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You're always going to think that no one understands your situation. You're going to feel like everyone’s lives are better than yours, and that you have it worse than everyone else. It feels like you’re going through the toughest time out of everyone around you.

The truth is that you know that you don’t have it worse. You know that everyone deals with their own problems that are just as tough. They go through rough things in life too. Everyone goes through similar troubles and obstacles in life. You just have to deal with it. Don't complain. No one can really help you. You've only got yourself.

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you eat, you’re fat. you don’t eat, you’re a freak. you drink, you’re an alcoholic. you don’t drink, you’re a pussy. you read, you’re a nerd. you don’t read, you’re stupid. you tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. you don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. you let someone in, you’re easy. you don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. you smoke, you think you’re cool. you don’t smoke, you’re a loser. you’ve had sex, you’re a slut. you haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch. you wear make up, you’re a slag. you don’t wear make up, you’re ugly. you can’t please anyone. ever.

(via -thisisyourbaptism)

@ 6:49 PM

hi.

i don’t have colored contacts.

i don’t put on pounds of makeup.

i don’t wake up early to fix my hair or look super cute.

i don’t have huge boobs.

i don’t have the perfect body.

i don’t have smooth pimple-free skin.

i don’t have a lip piercing.

i don’t have the best clothes out there.

i don’t have the perfect smile.

i don’t have great talents.

sorry if i’m not good enough.

kbye.

(via daamnjoanne)

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It's not my fault I can't be like you, okay? I don't get up in the morning thinking the world is one big, shiny, happy place. That's just not how I work. I don't think I can be fixed.

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Nevermind
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I don't feel content with anything. I have so many problems and I can't solve them. I'm happy, but I'm not satisfied. I'm not fine with anything. My life isn't perfect and I have issues.

I don't write a lot these days
Friday, September 17, 2010 @ 9:40 PM

Because there's nothing to write about. I feel blank. Blank as in feeling content. I feel normal, although I shouldn't. I don't want to worry about anything right now, I just want to pay attention and work hard in school and spend time with people.

There's nothing I want to rant or talk about, really. And if I do want to rant about something, I stop myself from posting because I decided not to blog every single thing about my life. I realized it's better to try and solve the problem instead of wasting time writing a blog post about it.

I'm fine with everything, for now.

So sorry if my blog is getting boring. I'm filling the empty spaces with pictures and quotes/lyrics to entertain you guys.

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^ Hai, I got a mac.

Say Goodnight
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Our separation has it's faults, but I don't wanna leave it all. So write the letters in teary ink, I just need some time to think and I just need some time to breathe. Baby just say goodnight, I'll be gone tomorrow. Baby just close your eyes, I can't take the sorrow. Baby just walk away, you know I can't stay. There's no easy way to say goodbye, so baby just say goodnight. We're in a spell that never ends. The empty hourglass wore me thin. So let the phone do it's work. Your voice is heaven, but it hurts. Your words are memories, but they burn.

- Click Five

Thursday, September 16, 2010 @ 10:37 PM

FWD: I AM A CLASSY INDIVIDUAL AND MY FUZZY BLANKET IS AWESOME. - Cody

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Where were you when I needed you most? Why did you leave me alone? We gave up before we gave it a chance.

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Another dream wasted on you.

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^ ROFL.

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I know exactly how that is. To love somebody who doesn’t deserve it. Because they are all you have. Because any attention is better than no attention. For exactly the same reason, it is sometimes satisfying to cut yourself and bleed. On those gray days where eight in the morning looks no different from noon and nothing has happened and nothing is going to happen and you are washing a glass in the sink and it breaks-accidentally-and punctures your skin. And then there is this shocking red, the brightest thing in the day, so vibrant it buzzes, this blood of yours. That is okay sometimes because at least you know you’re alive.

— Running With Scissors

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Memories aren’t stored in the heart or the head or even the soul, if you ask me, but in the spaces between any given two people. When people drift apart, these spaces wear thin - what then, is left of these memories?

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Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ 9:50 PM

Everything I do means nothing to you.

You don’t know how my heart sinks when I know you’re talking to a girl.
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I’m not sure if that’s out of jealousy, or insecurity.
Maybe even a mixture of both.

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^ And I'm pretty sure the world would be a much better place without me.

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When I'm alone for too long,
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I think too much.

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I'm human too
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I don't deserve to be treated like shit. You've been treating me horribly lately, and I don't like it. If you don't want to be friends with me anymore, tell me. Just because we're close friends, doesn't mean you can get all comfortable and treat me like however you want to treat me. I'm damn sure you wouldn't do half the things you do to your other friends, so why me? I'm human. I have feelings and I'm your friend. Does that word mean nothing to you? Or are you just being a bitch and not giving a fuck about how I feel anymore. If you're getting tired of me, just say it. If you don't want to talk to me, talk to me about it and I'll leave you the fuck alone. Just don't sneak away and slowly stop talking to me. I hate when people do that thinking they're walking out of my life unnoticed. I notice every little detail.

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I feel like I'm losing a close friend.

School = gay
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Since my school does block schedule crap, every class is an hour+ long. And we get progress reports once every two weeks. Crazy. Mid term exams are on OCTOBER. W t f.

Starting in January, we get new classes and I'm getting AP Biology. I'm obviously going to die. I'm already failing Biology honors, how the fuck do they expect me to pass AP Biology and the fucking exam. And next semester, I'm only getting one elective and that's gym. Do not want. But it's required. Fml. The other 3 classes are going to be English, Geography and history? I don't know. But this year is not going to be fun.

Monday, September 13, 2010 @ 8:43 PM


^ Lol'd. /dead

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