atm: I hate life.
Saturday, March 10, 2012 @ 8:27 PM

I can literally pick out every single person and rant about what I hate about them, besides a few people. Literally every single thing has been irritating me for the past week, probably because of my stupid-teenage-breakup-shit.

I wish things were back to “normal”, whatever “normal” used to be. I don’t want to feel this way anymore, it’s as if my heart’s crumbling and being suffocated by thoughts of him. I want to find happiness again. I want to easily and effortlessly smile, whether it’s with him or without him. I can’t seem to bring myself to cross the border that’s between letting go and holding on. The fact that we’re actually over still hasn’t completely hit me; I just can’t seem to believe it. It’s so difficult to believe that he’s gone when merely a few days ago, he was the closest person to my heart. His absence seems unbelievable, like a dream almost, because we were always together. It hurts to imagine everything we’ve worked for fading away day by day. It hurts to realize that sooner or later, we’ll be nothing more than strangers, just like the beginning. We’ll eventually feel indifferent despite all we’ve been through. The intensity of the love we’ve once felt will be forgotten and difficult to recall.

Thinking about my future without him.. simply sucks, for lack of a better term.