Thursday, March 1, 2012 @ 11:43 PM

It's too fucking exhausting loving you.

Since I've stepped into your life as a lover, I've been struck with this feeling of difficulty that never seemed to come to an end. The harder we fell in love with each other, the more difficult it became to endure. We started with a thick rope that held us together. It gradually began to lose its durability as our hearts grew heavier. The strings were tearing apart until it was frayed. A strand of yarn is all that's left over after all of this; a strand of yarn is all that is holding us together.

I've always doubted the word, "forever" but you made me think twice about it. You made me believe that we could turn what was impossible into a possibility. You made me feel your love, leaving me black and blue and with ache. Giving up was never an option for me. Letting you go wasn't either. It's just so.. so painful to continue. But it's even more painful to be left alone again.

All I wish is for you to hold me close, cover me in your warm embrace, and make everything go away. You've done it before. I need it the most now. I need you more than ever before, but you've already ran so far away. When did we get so distant? It seems like it all happened so quickly, or maybe we neglected it enough to be oblivious of the growing distance until we were too far, too late. At one point I was able to feel your presence without movement. You were there to shelter me from everything bad. Now I'm unable to reach you even with the tips of my fingers.

I miss you, I miss you.