Sunday, October 14, 2012
@ 12:41 AM
We've crossed paths, again. We're finally open to communicate with each other with nothing to stop us, yet we are so reluctant to. I'm too afraid to start the conversation much of the time due to various reasons. You on the other hand, don't seem to mind the fact that I feel ignored and won't even acknowledge my existence.
Where are we headed?
Maybe I am much too impatient for results. There's a possibility that there might be no results at all, that we'll continue on this nonchalant pathway until we naturally part ways (unlike previous times where it was practically forced on me). I just need some type of clue to where we
might be going. You seem interested and careless at the same time. I'm stuck here trying my best to not let your nonchalance get the best of me, to act as if your actions don't bother me at all, but they eat away at my thoughts and I'm too afraid to directly ask for answers.
Who are you to me? Who am I to you? Two questions that constantly remain in my mind that I have yet to find valid answers for. I no longer know who you are to me, what value your presence holds in my life, and how much I desire your company. I just.. Prefer you stay rather than leave. I want to get to know you all over again and possibly fall in love with who you are, all over again. But your actions cut down my hope. I want to stop if I'm going to be treated this way.