Friday, August 17, 2012 @ 1:37 AM

I've come across many instances where I wish to give up on achieving any higher than what I already have. Everyday, I'm bombarded by words that cut through my self esteem, words that burn away any hope I've managed to hold on. I'm a huge disappointment, apparently. I'm living a lie, apparently. When you hear something so often and so emphasized, the phrases constantly linger in your mind. Those afflictive words fill your mind and you begin to accept them as truths. You start doubting who you are and how much you're capable of.

The amount of expectations are a heavy weight on my shoulders, I feel as if I'm carrying the entire world. Am I really expected to fulfill all of what's expected from me? Will my efforts even be adequate? Or will I once again disappoint those that look up to me and become a burden on their lives.