Saturday, April 21, 2012 @ 12:31 AM

All I hear is the exact opposite of what I want to hear.

I want to hear that he’s doing terrible. That he lost a grip on life. That he’s gone insane ever since he left. I want to hear that he’s unable to even force a smile on his face. I want to hear that the guilt is eating him alive, that he feels so terribly fucking sorry and regrets all that he’s done to me. I want to hear that he’d give anything, that he’d sacrifice his life to be forgiven. I want to hear that everything has gone down hill since my presence has disappeared from his life. I want to hear that he’s mourning, he’s crying. I want to see him suffer for what he’s done, I want to hear that he’s begging for my forgiveness and resents himself for his actions. I want to hear that he’s fucking sorry.