Tuesday, April 10, 2012 @ 12:12 PM

It's not you who I've been missing whenever we would break up, or even now. It's the feelings. The idea of a "perfect relationship" has been stuck onto me which made me determined to make whatever work for us. It's not you who I really fell in love with, no, it was the general idea of a relationship that I loved. Those intense emotions, a daring roller coaster ride. The passion of love and feeling like you "cannot live" without the significant other when you clearly can. The feeling of addiction to another human being. 

I loved the relationship itself more than you. This explains why I've tried to make the impossible, possible. Why I couldn't ever give up despite the solid concrete wall that laid right before my eyes indicating a dead end.