Monday, June 20, 2011 @ 8:31 PM

I want to end this altogether. The constant shifting of my emotions is something I can't handle anymore. A smile appears and disappears from my face all too quickly. I've been searching for a reason to be genuinely happy. A reason to manage a true smile on my face at all times. Giving up seems like the only solution that'll work for me at the moment. I keep trying to find something to hold on to. I've become too dependent on things other than myself for happiness. Once I think I found happiness that will last, it vanishes, and the sharp pain in my heart grows a little more. At least if I give up now, there will be less to expect. I'll face less disappointment, and maybe I'll recover to my original state.