Alright then.
I'm not sure where I'm going with all of this at all. It's been like this every month. I gotta get my shit together. Looking at couples all the time makes me sick. I envy everyone of them. I was one of the girls that other girls would envy because of my long-term relationship. Always laughing. Always making each other happy. Fighting. Thats one thing I miss the most, fighting. It always showed how much you cared when it came down to one of us leaving, we'd always turn out and say our "I love you"'s and "I'm sorry"'s. Something I'd give anything for. Why am I so hooked on you? Because you were you, and that was all I ever wanted in a person, and I thought I could sit here and say that I'd get over you one day. I always try to push those feelings aside, but everybody knows they're always going to be there. I've always tried to avoid talking to you, everytime I see you on. It's always so tempting. I always want to just make myself better by talking to you. I always just want to tell you my feelings, in hopes of making some of those stupid feelings go away.