I'm in California. He's in Amsterdam. Just with that, people drop to conclusions. Yes, it's a really long distance, long distance relationship. We met two years ago.. on a website. We were just friends, and I didn't expect anything to come of it. But you know what? We fell in love. It's both the best and the worst thing that's ever happened to me. I'm almost always hurting. We seem to always argue and fight over little stupid things that mean so much to me. I cry myself to sleep constantly. What else am I supposed to I do? You'd think that love would keep us together, but.. he doesn't want to be with me, he says that we're just going to stay friends. And y'know, that just.. really hurts, knowing that we both love each other, yet he doesn't want me.. He's the one who holds my heart together. He holds me together. Everything is getting harder. But.. I just have to deal with it, because I'd rather have him as a friend, than have nothing at all. I can't let him go. He's my best friend. And I'd be so lost without him.