Um..
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 @ 1:23 PM

I'm confused, like really, confused. You say you liked me for a long time. Now you're scared to get with me now that I've finally decided to give us a chance? Lolwut. Okay, yeah I understand you're afraid to get hurt again. You take these things seriously and you let it get to you. I've seen you get extremely depressed and upset because of girls breaking your heart. That doesn't mean all girls are like that. It doesn't mean I'm like that. Yes, you've changed, but maybe I like the new you. I'm not talking about you being sad. I don't like seeing you upset. But you're more serious and I think that's good. I don't mind your changes, it's natural and you can't help it. I still like you, for you.

I've always had a space for you in my heart. LOL, shit that sounds lame as fuck but it's true, and this is the only way I can describe it. Ever since we became best friends, which was a long, long time ago. But just because I had a space for you doesn't mean I've always wanted to let you in. As you may know, I hardly ever take you seriously and when you confessed your feelings towards me, I.. obviously didn't take it seriously. I always think you're joking. Well, thought. I have been thinking about this, and you're the type of guy I can trust, with anything. You're probably faithful and you'll never lie to me. You're extremely kind and I know you would never do anything to hurt me. But you seem more like a best friend, or brother. Not much of a boyfriend/lover. I'm not sure if I'm ready to 'love' you. I'm not sure if you're ready; I don't know if I'm ready. I don't know if I'll be able to fall in love with you.

Shit's complicated. Oh and we barely talk ANYMORE. IDK WHAT'S UP WITH YOU BUT. We need to talk more, like we used to. Kthnxbai