Friday, July 6, 2012 @ 9:17 AM

The past few days have been good to me. I've regained calmness within my heart, although it's unknown how much more I can endure until I break again. Nothing's for certain, not now, not ever. I stopped suffocating myself with thoughts of my own issues, what I lack, and what's beyond my control. I kept myself busy so there's no time for my mind to search for negative thoughts to dwell on for an entire day. Basically, I've been supressing sadness by avoiding my thoughts completely; my emotions are detached from my heart and nothing gets to me like it used to. I haven't let anyone in long enough for them to have any impact on me, and it feels great. I feel secure. My walls are up again. Happiness hasn't been reached yet, but where I am now is better than where I used to be.