I'm in need of some sort of remedy.
Thursday, June 7, 2012 @ 3:54 PM

I am in denial, it’s true.

I don’t want to believe it.

I care. I thought I had forgotten you for good, well, I was just about there. I was so close. A few more steps and I would’ve reached my goal.

But I am reminded of you all over again. Everything I’ve built up so far crumbled into pieces; my heart suddenly collapsed. It feels so weak now.

You are nothing to me. I constantly repeat those words whenever thoughts of you would slide pass my mind as I let out a loud sigh. I always let out the loudest sighs when I’m forced to think of you because I feel so immensely suffocated. I just want to be left alone. Everyone says that I’m choosing to suffer by thinking of you, that I have a choice and I’m not helpless. I may not be but I sure feel like I am, I feel powerless to my thoughts and most of all, hatred towards you. I wish to feel indifferent towards anything relating to you so I’m no longer affected by your presence, but it’s never that easy.