Thursday, June 16, 2011 @ 9:16 AM

We live our whole lives trying to find who we are and to create ourselves. It's scary when you realize where you stand and you're going the exact opposite direction from where you want to be. It feels as if it's too late to take a drastic turn and you have no choice other than to continue on the same path whether you like it or not.

I'm losing my sense of direction. I honestly don't know where this road's heading and I'm clueless of what lays ahead. I can't tell the difference between what's true and fake anymore. I don't know what I know. I don't know what to believe and not believe. Lies seem like the truth and the truth seem like lies. Things just don't happen because you wish for it. It doesn't matter if things are to your liking or disliking. If it's meant to be, it'll happen. Try to prove fate wrong and you'll be in loss. Years have passed and as I was growing up, I thought it'd get easier to comprehend the world. I expected things to get less complicated, less difficult, less challenging, but it turns out to be the opposite. It's nothing like what I've expected. If anything, I feel lost. Bewildered. It's agonizing. I've always had this crazy idea that knowing, experiencing, and witnessing more would be a beneficial factor. The more I hear and see, the more frightened I get. I'm starting to see the world for what it really is. Corrupt, unfair, cruel, and careless. It's rare and unlikely to see a true happy ending. Sometimes it's best for someone to not know so much. You never want to know everything. There are certain things that'd be best for you if you were never aware of it's existence. Only dare if you can handle it.