Dear Me,
Tuesday, February 1, 2011 @ 11:50 AM

Stop hurting. Stop talking about your problems, then you'll eventually forget them. No one gives a fuck anyway. It's no use hurting over someone that doesn't give the slightest shit about you. So just stop everything, and go back to who you were before. It's going to be hard but it will happen. Keep smiling, whether it's fake or not. No one will know. Smile and laugh, constantly. You can never show people that you're hurt. You're a happy person, with or without him. The fact of the matter is, he's done. He won't look back, so why the fuck are you? You're only hurting yourself. Just focus more on yourself, improve yourself. Now that he's not a part of your life anymore, you have some time to be selfish. Your heart aches, and everything hurts. You know you shouldn't cry, but you are. You're such a cry baby. Crying won't get you anywhere. This will be the last time you shed tears for him.

In 10 years, you probably won't even remember all of this. Why you were hurting, who you were hurting for, and when it happened. You probably won't even remember the pain that you're feeling right now. Everything will be okay.

Don't say you regret all of this because at one point, he's all you wanted and you were completely fine. He was your happiness, so be thankful for that. He's taught you things that you never would've known if it wasn't for him. But that's all he is. Someone that came into your life, taught you a lesson, and walked straight back out. You tried to get him back, but you weren't strong enough. And you can't force anything on anyone. At least you know you tried.

Accept his abandonment. He's gone, and he's done. Stop holding onto pieces of memories that mean absolutely nothing to him. He said that he's glad he's done with you. He's said the worst things anyone could ever say to a person, and yet you're still sitting here thinking about him. You must've gone mad. Get your sanity back. You're looking for someone to find comfort in. Go rely on someone. But it's time to let go of him.