The worst feeling
Wednesday, September 1, 2010 @ 5:40 PM

It's when you realize you've been completely fucked over. People have been screwing with you, talked shit behind your back and even laughed at you, and you didn't know a thing. Your world has been falling apart while you were falling for their lies, oblivious.

It's just as bad when you give someone your all, including your heart and they don't give a damn. You fall for them and they just drop you, hard, on the fucking ground when you expected them to catch you. It feels like your world is literally fucking crumbling down. It feels like it's the end of the world. You feel like you lost everything you've ever had and you look back at that person you once trusted. But you start doubting yourself. You say, "No.. he wouldn't do this to me. He said he loved me." So you trust him again and again and again. But each time you give it another try, it keeps failing. He keeps lying to you, he says things you want to hear. Half of you notices his fake attitude and wants to let go. The other half wants and misses the person that told you the things you wanted to hear; the guy that made you feel special and loved.

You can't take it anymore, you love him, but it hurts too much. You decide you aren't even happy anymore, and you don't need him, you just want him. You finally get the guts to let him go. It drives you insane for several months, then things settle down and you're almost back to normal.

Time passes, you gain and lose friends, things change, you've grown and gotten wiser. You forget about the past then one day, you look back and realize how stupid and oblivious you were. He never loved you, it was all an act. But you don't want to admit it. You don't want to feel like an idiot. So you come up with the excuse, "Love blinds people." to cover up your embarrassment.