Someone help me, I have a problem.
Saturday, July 17, 2010 @ 2:58 AM

I really think I'm depressed. LOL like, I have some kind of fucking disorder. At first, I thought this shit would fade; I thought it would go away, but it's staying. It's been here for fucking MONTHS. I can't stand it. I feel down for no fucking reason at random times. FGNFDGNKFDMGDKD Fuck. I have no idea why I feel so sad.

I keep denying the fact that I am depressed, because it sounds..well, unreal. Me? Depressed? No way. I'm a happy person. I look too happy to be depressed. I guess I don't know myself well enough.

Sometimes, I think that crying would make all this go away, but I don't want to feel like a crazy bitch and cry for no reason. I only want to cry when it's really necessary; when I absolutely cannot hold back my tears, when I am at my weakest, I'll cry. For now, I'll keep it in.