Wednesday, July 7, 2010 @ 9:27 AM

"How dare you walk into my life and break my heart. That’s not fair. You promised. You promised so many things to me. You promised me letters and emails and songs and stories. You said you’d tell me you love me everyday. You said forever. You never fulfilled those promises, and I still held my arms wide open for you. I told myself I’d never give my heart away again. But then you came along and I was hesitant. But with everything that you are, I gave you the power to break my heart. You swore on your life, you wouldn’t. Despite everything, I forgave and forgave and forgave. Even when you said you couldn’t be there for me anymore, I still thought you’d at least care. I shrugged and moved on, hoping the next day, you’d be different. Do you know how hurt I’ve been these past few months? I see your face everywhere. Even when you’re not here. The universe won’t let me forget you. I don’t want to forget you.

I gave you so much of myself. You said you’d never hurt me. You said you wouldn’t leave me the way he did before. You can’t just say that to someone, then tell them you just “can’t put your heart in it” anymore. You can’t just share so much with a person and then say, “I need time to think.” No. Just, no. Where does that leave me? That’s not fair to me. That’s not fair. You can’t do that. How could you do that to someone? How could you do that to me? I thought you loved me. For a while, I honestly believed to the pit of my soul that you would never hurt me.

Just… how fucking dare you.

I can’t breathe."