3800.) I’m fucking sick and tired of nice guys. I want a guy who will abuse me, physically and mentally. But I want that same guy to love me with every ounce of his being. I don’t want a guy who will sit and take all my bullshit, I want a guy who calls me out on it. I want a jealous guy who won’t let me have guy friends. I want a guy who only wants to hang out with me, all the time. I’m afraid I’ll never find him and I’ll just have to settle eventually. I’m scared to death of just settling. Please lord, give me a guy like this.

3779.) I want to give up. On the guy. On striving to reach my parent’s expectations. On trying to keep a good reputation. On society. On me. I just want to give up. Because it feels like I’ll never please all of them. Because it feels like I’m losing who I am in the process. But mostly because I hate living like this.

3777.) Tell me why I feel more miserable as each day passes. People say time was supposed to heal it all, but time is making me feel worse. Time is telling me how much of it you spend with someone else. How every day with her is making you fall deeper for her. How every hour without you only gives me more opportunities to think about the times we had. How many of my minutes were spent with you on my mind. How one second was all it took for us to fall apart.

3776.) You are the best and the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I can’t help falling in love with you while you’re breaking my heart.