You push me away.
Friday, April 16, 2010 @ 1:46 PM

I tried caring for you, I tried talking to you, but you always push me to the side somewhere. It feels weird and I'm not used to it because I've never been ignored by you before. I was the center of your life and that's how I thought it would always be. You not talking to me is a huge change. I know you don't care about someone like me anymore but I care about you. Sadly. I really hate feeling like you don't care. I still want to be your friend. I still want to talk to you. I don't want to become that 'one girl I used to know' in your life. I want to be known as your 'good friend'. I told myself I don't need you even as a friend a million times, but I always end up wanting to talk to you. What the fuck is up with that. You used to be able to talk about anything to me, or so I think. Now we don't even say a word to each other and it's just plain weird. Maybe it's just me feeling this way. Maybe it's a waste of my time caring. Maybe you don't feel the same. If you don't, then I must look like a complete idiot.